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Now that I have been given the chance to speak, I shall wait for the silence. Or rather, The silenced. I stand her just to mouth for the mute. I ask if you’re willing to listen, not just hear what they have to say. These winds carry the screams of those once in pain, Their tears fall heavily upon us as rain. It’s as though we believe God exists, but fail to see his children crying. Like Atheists we sit here, their existence denying. And to those of us who believe in ourselves rather than this higher power. Why do we fail to see the lives being wasted every hour? Is it because they’re not like us? We are as deaf to them as we are to religion. I could try to see things from your point of view, but even then I would blame you. Because you said you’d have helped had you known. But through their silence it was clearly shown. Now I see you trying to hide, Just like they hid their sufferings – “I’m okay” they lied. The problem is we have strived to be perfect for so

Mama.

Mama, I’m sorry. You taught me to love all but I failed you. Hatred is all that clouds my mind. You were right. You did sow flowers but I grew weeds. I tried. I promise I did. I tried to see the good in all. I promise I lent an ear. I promise I tried to see it from their point of view. But mama it’s your fault too. You taught me to love and to be loved, but how does one confuse being loved with being constantly hurt? They took the ear I lent only to whisper lies about myself into my head. They used my shoulders only to push me down. They took my hands only to claw scared into it. Mama, I’m sorry but I don’t understand how this is love. If this is love, I love myself unconditionally. I beat myself mentally in claims it’ll help me do better. I carve my name into my arm to remind me of who I am. I scream into my pillow till my throat is sore, all because I love myself mama. But more than myself, I love you and I love you with the definition of love I want to believe in, what

Who is she?

I see her clear, no doubt about that. I stare at her, she stares at me back. The same body, the same face. But this girl, she is from a different place. the same body, but not the same person. She created a doppelganger of herself without knowing the reason. Stronger is her persona, she won't stay still. But I don't recognise the girl I see, this girl has lost all will. The girl I raised was porcelain and perfect, nothing did she lack. But all I see of the girl in front of me, is full of wear, tear and cracks. Her smile is now crooked, this time the tears cause the shine in her eyes. It is clear there is nothing left of what she believed in. She buried them under her lies This is not the friend I made. It is not in her I grew to believe. I don't recognise her and I tell her to leave. This is not the girl I cared for, I convince myself or at least I try. But the girl in the mirror continues to repeat the word "help". Who could

The Crusader

Royalty She was a lion Unique One of a kind She managed to walk on fire Without expressing pain Strong she was she had the whole world to gain Confronting challenges Conquering difficulties Climbing the ladder of victorious entities elegantly fighting to prove herself right becoming successful owning the night instead of tripping she walked over haters and with a room lighting smile she knocked down demotivators and look at her humble yet proud the small-town girl today stands out from the crowd

The Unforbidden Drug

Stay away from me, I‘m a drug. Not the good kind, For when people come close, I let them come closer. And at one point I make a mistake, And it shall hurt you. And you will do something knowingly or unknowingly, That will inturn hurt me back. I’m a drug with no cure Just symptoms And that’s what hurts, because I want to be the cure Rather than the cause. Yet I’m contagious And I truly love you And because I love you I wear warning - Stay away from me. I don’t want to hurt you Because I will never forgive myself It’s better you leave without a scratch Without a mark Without me Please.

Survivor

And here I am Where it all started The pain and the sorrow And it’s here I’ll end this sorrow and pain and walk happily out tomorrow I come to farewell To the most feared Monsters under my bed And come to drop The travelling parasites The demons in my head Collecting memories Putting them in a bag I’ll take them to Neverland Where side by side I walk with pride My true friends and I hand in hand And not so sad a farewell I throw As my worst demons begin to cry They start their search For their next poor victim As I wave them a happy goodbye And silly it may seem But I have to thank them For making my life a mess ‘cause I fought to live longer Grew more and more stronger And I turned out to be the best

Save me

Save me from this murderous rage I'm not going to Rather am already living in hell Where all that touches me makes me scream And my blood is frozen by fear Where I'm taught to drown while knowing to swim And mars takes control of my action Save me from this hysteria This powerful wicked soul That devours my wrong doings To fill its stomach To make it feel whole But it is a bottomless pit And i am a sinner Save me from this dark epiphany That stole my innocence Sold it to the devil In exchange for freedom the wicked soul did set me free from him But just chained me to scandals equally horrifying Save me from this beast Dressed in gentleman's pose Whose kiss feels like heaven And whose word cut like swords Cutting the line that divides reality from fantasy Making me act making Life a musical tragedy